My Head Is Spinning.

So life is spinning in circles right now, as is usually the case in the middle of the semester. Seems I don't have a minute to breathe...which isn't true entirely, just seems that way.

I really desire to learn to not complain and be negative. I think I do it when I get really stressed...or just overloaded. And that's happening right now. Eeeeeek.

This week, though, has been a really good one. Monday, class from 8-5...home to do homework...then yesterday, I taught til 1215, had to do some stuff for the pregnancy center in the quad until 330. Then it was home to work on my talk for this weekend until it was time to go to class @5...left there to immediately go out to the detention center...which was really awesome and encouraging and by far the best Valentine's Day I could've ever celebrated. Marina's coming so far. Then it was home to get my talk finished for Encounter. And then today...I've been at school since 730 this morning...then had a meeting after being in my 5 classes. Finally got home a couple minutes ago...and will be going to CrossTalk in a little bit. Tomorrow's teaching from 8-235, picking up the Etheredge kids at 245 and hanging out with them til around 10 (hopefully getting some homework done between those hours! I have 3 tests and a project due on Monday). Then Friday, I'll teach and then leave for Marble Falls for Encounter, where I'll be a guide all weekend and also give a talk (on FORGIVENESS...eeeeeeeek.). We get back Sunday afternoon. And then the week starts over again. Yikes.

So not complaining, just realizing the weight of the semester in these moments of stillness all by myself.

Eeeeek. So I am really excited about the weekend. I'm going to have a girl that has been especially picked for me because of my past counseling experience...so that should be interesting. :) It's a huge retreat, it seems, to go and spend time just meeting with the Lord. Granted, it's quite an emotional weekend, as the purpose is to break before God and deal with sin and hurt...and though I'm not the participant this go around, it'll still be a toll on the emotions since I'll be working intimately with someone (or perhaps even 2 girls)...and just from past experience, I know that that kind of counseling is one of the most emotionally draining things to undergo. So I'll just need lots of sleep and prayer that the Lord will strengthen and make me rested (in every aspect). Not to mention just talking about my story and forgiveness with my mom will be difficult. I'm glad and ready and confident that the Lord will come through...but it's still something that is out of my control really. It's a big deal, spilling out who I am and where I've come from. And it's also a time of incredible celebration concerning what the Lord has done and conquered and brought me through.

So here we are. American Idol is on, so I think I'll go ahead and just be entertained for a couple minutes before I head out to campus again. Yep...outta here.